like a chicken…

Wednesday 28 November 2007

Even though I grew up in a rural area (when people say they’re from a small town, it usually doesn’t mean to them what it means to me — 1200 people), I’ve never actually seen a chicken run around with its head cut off.  Perhaps that’s a good thing.  I’m sure most of the people out there have never experienced such a sight, but we use the phrase nonetheless.

In many ways, I feel like the schedule I’ve created for myself the last few weeks of November and the first half of December have put me in a similar situation as such a chicken, at least in terms of scheduling.  All in all, in the course of about 4 weeks (which I’m about half way through now), I’ll have slept in 7 different states/districts and been in about 4 more.  That’s even more than my 5 week recruiting trip!  I don’t think the travel itself is really what’s caused me to feel a little scattered, but more the fact that I haven’t really done a lot of planning for all this, or at least the amount of planning I’m used to (and certainly nothing compared to what I did for my time recruiting).

This past Monday and Tuesday I was in Chicago with my brother, and many of the plans happened a few days before or the day of — not quite what I’m used to, but Monday worked out surprisingly well, and Tuesday went quite well, too (once we got past the whole showing up late to our first meeting thing).  Perhaps that just means I need to recognize that success can still be found when you don’t have a huge plan in the works — but I still think it helps.

As you may or may not know, my “life planning” has been much more short-term than it was in the past, but I’ve learned to deal with that.  As of now, I only have confirmed plans through 5 April, though some close to confirmed things for the few months after that.  I think what helps me deal with that is having some kind of possible plans out there and the willingness to change those as necessary.

I’m trying to live life and go where I feel called and pulled to go, and if that means trying to get away from my planning mentality a little bit (it will never happen fully — it’s part of who I am), then it’s what I’ll continue to work on.  But for now, I’ll try to do some planning for the next few weeks in hopes of making them fun and successful — though I’m confident that being with the people I plan on being with during that time will create wonderful memories no matter what.

giving thanks

Thursday 22 November 2007

When I really sit back and think about the things I’m thankful for, I could name a lot.  But what’s really been hitting me hard lately is how much I’m thankful for people.

People in my life take all shapes and forms — some I live with, some I work with, some I hang out with, some are family, some live close by and others live hundreds of miles away, some I talk to daily and others every month or so, some I exchange letters with — and that is good.  I am thankful for the many and varied ways in which I connect with others.  I’m 25, but I feel that I have, at least for me, recognized that the meaning of life is all about building and sustaining beautiful and edifying relationships, and in all I do, I really strive to make that my priority in living.  I would suggest it of you, too, if it isn’t already.

I am thankful to have so many people in my life who I know love and support me and all the endeavors that I might carry out, who love and respect and honor the unique person that I am.  Acceptance is something that I have become to hold very dear to my heart, because in this world, it’s somehow so hard to find that.  I am who I am — my beliefs, my upbringing, my wonders, my actions — some of which can be changed, some of which cannot.  I continue to evolve as a person, and I truly value those in my life who recognize and encourage the changes that are happening.

As it goes right now, I don’t seem to be on the “standard” track of living, which I continue to daily accept as my destiny, and to have others who truly respect that as who and what I am is invaluable.  While I could probably muster up the energy and courage to do what I feel called to on my own, it becomes so much easier when there are others there to offer their love and support.

On this fourth Thursday in November, 2008, I thank all those who give me the love I need and meet me where I am.  I am truly honored to have you in my life, and I pray that I am doing the same for you.

beautiful life

Wednesday 7 November 2007

pb070698.jpgI don’t normally write about day to day things, but yesterady was an amazing day!  After over two months without a bike (5 of that driving a car!), I was able to get one from a friend, so in the past 4 days, I’ve been able to bike around DC, and it’s been amazing!  Riding down the streets for free(!), using no energy by my own, has a great feeling to it.  And last night, two co-workers and I were invited to dinner with our “boss,” and we all biked the 2+ miles there, and as I was trailing them, it just brought joy to my heart!  All of us, collectively, going against the norms of society, along with the many others biking along with us, was an amazing feeling.

Some other things yesterday and today have made it an amazing time back here in DC.  One was today my wearing of this awesome t-shirt I got over a month ago before I went on the road.  When I saw it, I just had to purchase it.  I was at a “craft fair,” and it was sold by the great people of Mr. Pickles, who you should check out.

And last, but certainly not least, we last night made our own sushi!  It was so much fun to make and wrap and cut and eat!  I love little things like that.

 Sometimes life is just joyful, so you rejoice.  This week seems to be one of those times, and I’m definitely not taking it for granted!

see this movie!

Thursday 1 November 2007

It’s not that often that I get excited over something I see on a the great movie website, but I was thrilled when I saw the headline yesterday telling everyone of the nationwide opening of Wristcutters: A Love Story, one of my favorite movies in recent memory.

How, you may ask, did it become one of my favorite movies if it had never been in theaters?  Well, that’s one of the (possible) joys of attending a film festival — you get to see movies others might not or at least before others are able to — in this over a year before most people have the chance.

Last fall, early in my time in Milwaukee, I volunteered to work for the Milwaukee International Film Festival.  I had loved the Chicago International Film Festival, so I thought I’d try the MKE version, and being a “poor volunteer,” I took the suggestion of volunteering as an usher for a few hours at the festival and got free tickets to see some films I was interested in (I recommend this no matter who you are).  Plus, Wristcutters was playing only about 8 blocks away from my house, so there was really no reason not to see it.

I can’t tell you exactly why I like it so much, but I’ll try — I think above all I just loved the story.  It’s based on a short story by Etgar Keret, an Israeli writer — I picked up a copy of short stories he had in the MKE library and loved those, too (it contained The Nimrod Flip-Out, among others).  It’s quirky by “real, ” too — or at least as real as a story set in an afterlife where everyone has committed suicide can be.  The characters are fun, and it even contains a certain actor from Arrested Development (Gob maybe?) playing the Christ figure.

In any case, Wristcutters: A Love Story is starting in most major and many mid-major markets on 2 November 2007, so find a theater where it’s playing and go see it!  I think (if you have similar movie tastes to me) you won’t regret it!

Another Keret short (very short) story — One Hundred Percent